Shame is a curse, and the rule of the curse is you can’t talk about it.
I heard this line from a woman named Mami Onami. I have honestly learned, healed, and grown so much from her, go check her out. https://www.mamionami.com/safehouse I’ve taken a few of her courses as well when they were doing a monthly subscription. And… well… go take them.
This particular line has been running through my head on repeat. Shame is a POWERFUL thing that we are all carrying on some level. It’s a massive Charka block. For me, shame was and is something I struggle with, because it was weaponized a lot through my formative years, and heavily reinforced through my young adulthood. Of course, in typical human fashion, I was amazing at self-perpetuating it through the rest of my life. At least until the last few years.
When it was explained to me like that, something just clicked. It snapped into place for me, in a way I can’t explain. Shame is a curse. It infects everything. Dripping its oozy gross self all over every relationship, every quiet moment, and every behavior. Once I saw it like this, noticing the gross invader became easy. I could see that Shame was a curse plain and simple.
That does not mean that dealing with it is easy. Because it is one thing to know there is a curse, its another to actually do something about the curse.
And the funny thing is, the rule of the curse, is you can’t talk about it. Shame is really good at staying inside. Because it wouldn’t be a problem if you didn’t have a problem talking about it. This proved to be true for me. Talking about it, felt like there was a little gremlin sitting in my chest, refusing to let me breathe and stomping around my insides until I felt like a pulverized piece of meat. If that doesn’t sound dramatic I don’t know what it is.
But its the truth.
The big giant emotions around this could be exasperated by the fact that I am an Aries. And you know us aries, always worried about the way we are perceived.
Dealing with the Curse.
Dealing with this block or the curse of shame, has made me a far nicer person though. Because for me, I had to get to the bottom of it. I couldn’t just talk about the things I was ashamed of, there was no amount of trying to force myself to do it that was going to work. I had to understand why I felt that way, and I had this desire to prove that it was all just so bad for me to ever talk about and that I was right to hold it in.
I even had the thought that I could be the one person who could hold things in, and carry the shame, but also release the block. The pride in me was just too fucking much. I cringe at myself a little now.
Getting to the bottom of things, forced me to look at myself and admit that something was wrong in the first place! Admitting that there were parts of me, whole ass parts of my personality, of my life, of my past, and coping skills, that I pretty much liked to pretend didn’t exist. To accept them as a part of myself.
To accept them as a part of myself meant that I had to admit I was being judgmental about other people who were struggling with the same thing. Remember, that everything you judge you’re secretly jealous of. Which made me look at people and the human experience very differently.
People with addictions are hurting. People who don’t get their shit together, are getting exactly what they need from life. People still hanging out in religion, are not prepared to leave yet, they may never. And they are getting exactly what they need.
Go check out this page if you want to schedule one-on-one time to go over this more in a way that is personal to you. Or if you just want a safe place to talk about it. https://elizabetheternal.com/creating-the-feminine-energy/
So yeah.
Theere is just to much I wanna talk about on this subject. So come back for part two.
Also, for all my lovlie feminine energies out there. You do not need these things to heal, you really don’t. But if you are going to embark on something like this, please protect and nurture the feminine energy through this. It’s easy to dip too far into the masculine when dealing with structural energies. I’m going into that in the next post.
Do it like a women damn it!
So these are a few things that gave me comfort and reminded me to go slow. You do what you need to do.
https://amzn.to/3VWAdvI -Cozy blanket.
https://amzn.to/3VDxiXE -Warming things.
https://amzn.to/4evL2w6 – Crystals
