Hello all! I am currently working on a few posts to put up in here about the masculine and the Feminine energy and I am so excited about them it’s unreal. That is a subject I have been looking into quite a lot and trying to understand for a long time. I mean I got it on a surface level. It wasn’t exactly a challenging concept. Buuuuuuut, I could feel that there was more I wasn’t getting, and I finally hacked it. Can’t wait to finish those up and get them out there.
The problem is.
I have been working myself into the ground, and getting this part of my career really going has been a chore and half if I am honest. It is just one more thing for me to accomplish in a day and that can be rather exhausting at this point in time.
But I am passionate about all the little things I am doing, and I will figure it out. It’ll work. Does it make sense for it to work?
Absolutly not. .
Am I going to do it anyway.
You bet your fucking ass I am.
However, right now I am working on becoming an insurance adjuster. Not exactly the way I saw my life going at all. And I may not stick with it for any length of time. I honestly don’t know. But here in lies the beauty of following your yes.
Fuck I have not talked about that in a hot second.
But when the opportunity was given to me, I could feel a deep intuitive yes. I knew that I needed to do the thing. And even though I could feel it in my jelly’s, and I am so determined to follow that feeling in every part of my life, I still dragged my feet about it.
Then I had the interview.
And I was like well fuck that sounds horrible.
not even going to try to lie to you.
But I still felt that deep resounding yes.
So, I had the second interview. Which went remarkably well.
And it still sounded horrible.
I could still feel that resounding yes.
Can I just say. I have seriously missed school, way more than I ever thought I was going to miss school. I feel like a Pegasus that just flew through a goddamn rainbow. It’s ridiculous how much I love learning and fitting all the pieces of a particular subject together in my head. I fucking love it. And even though the subject matter I am currently studying SUCKS FUCKING ROCKS. I still am finding that deep insatiable thirst for knowledge to be present.
So that’s cool.
This is for real one of those moments that I just put my hands up and surrender to the process. Surrender the universe. And do my fucking best.
I have a few rules when it comes to pursuing something new. Because as much as I would love to be one of those people that just fly’s wherever the wind takes them and doesn’t think too much about the consequences, I am not one of those people. I have a life and a family to care for and uphold. I can’t just be switching it up all willy nilly any time the notion takes me. That would get very exhaustive for everyone around me very fucking fast. Because well, I super enjoy trying new things. It makes me the happiest in the world.
My rules are:
1)It can’t take away from my fixed priorities and responsibilities. I.E. Keeping my house, a home, taking care of my loved ones, and whatever current goals we currently have as a family.
2)It has to grow me
3)The preference would be that it would make more money than whatever I am replacing it with.
Well, this fit all of those rules. Infact it kind of knocked them all out of the water.
So, after my little evaluation, I decided to take the plunge and say fuck it. Why the fuck not
Am I already trying to figure the best way into management?
Yes indeed I am.
Do I already have a six-point plan on exactly how I am going to do this?
You bet your fucking ass I do.
Will I ever get to fulfill that plan?
Who knows. That is one of the many very very delicious parts of honoring the yes. I don’t really know what is next for this. I know what is next for my main career. But this thing I am doing… Insurance *puke*… may end up being one of those things that I just do for a time to learn a particular skill. Or meet a particular person, or, or, or. Or it may very well be something I end up sticking with for a long time, because well, the money is AMAZING.
Not that I will need the money. Especially with the long-awaited launch of my novel coming up.
But like…. who doesn’t want even more money?
Just saying.
I digress.
Life is a bitch
And one hell of an adventure.
And I kind of love that.
But what the fuck do I know? I am just a woman, trying to make it.
